Googler Doodler?

Ahhhh, don't do it Ana; just don't. Ok what the hell- I'm doing it anyway. So, I caved today and Google stalked the hell out of that guy from this past weekend (halloween guy that got back wants to "work it out" with his ex wife). Because I feel as if I've been pushed over the edge this time with men, I wanted to know why I was so heartbroken over this one, dorky, overzealous guy. What made him different from all the rest of the guys I just walked out on without flinching? Google, my ladies, is brilliant. If you ever have your doubts about ANYBODY in this world, just google him and chances are you will find stuff that will either A)break your heart even more (i.e. if the guy has been an integral part of numerous charities around town, he plays in a blues band, or is the youngest M.D. on the board of a hospital) or B) turn you off, which is exactly what happened for me, thank goodness. I should start by saying that I was raised in Dallas, but I was born in Chicago, spent many of my adolescent years in San Diego and Los Angeles, and have family all over Europe and Africa. I'm a big city girl that constantly craves bright lights, dreams, and changes. For the past year, I have been having nightmares about tornadoes and tsunamis destroying my world. I would be standing on my balcony and a giant supercell would cave in over my head as if a twister would be born in my living room. Or, I would be standing on the beach outside of my brother's house, and a giant wave would try and engulf me. Some would argue and say it's just a symbol for my life swirling out of control, but I don't really care, they scare the shit out of me regardless of the reason. As a result, when I found out halloween guy used to be a storm chaser and used to be highly involved in his small town's chili cookoffs, I was immediately put off. No thank you, I'm a vegan and I obviously hate storms. So, is being a serial googler a good thing or a bad thing? Should we just naturally try to cross these small bumps in the road, or should we risk falling even harder? In this case, I was lucky. Now I have to go out and see him either tonight or tomorrow night. I'll probably be seeing him both. I'll let you know how it goes.


Love,

Ana